tonight i had a challenging night putting you down to sleep. you asked for a million things. more water, more animals, another hug. you wanted to sing me one more song. wanted me to sing you one more song. and then it just clicked. this time is finite. there will only be so many songs that i sing you. how can i begrudge you even one? lately you've asked me what "alone" means, it's not a concept i want to explain to you because i never want you to feel it. tonight i felt like something was keeping you from sleep and asked you. i wondered if you couldn't tell me because you were afraid of speaking up against the night shadows, i remember that feeling so clearly when i was little. then you said, "___ upset me today." i heard you mention this before today but must not have really heard you. your emerging awareness creates new situations that are bewildering but we are always here to help guide you through them. good night my sweet girl. sleep knowing that you are so loved.