Wednesday, June 6, 2012

when the morning gathers the rainbow...

tonight i had a challenging night putting you down to sleep. you asked for a million things. more water, more animals, another hug. you wanted to sing me one more song. wanted me to sing you one more song. and then it just clicked. this time is finite. there will only be so many songs that i sing you. how can i begrudge you even one? lately you've asked me what "alone" means, it's not a concept i want to explain to you because i never want you to feel it. tonight i felt like something was keeping you from sleep and asked you. i wondered if you couldn't tell me because you were afraid of speaking up against the night shadows, i remember that feeling so clearly when i was little. then you said, "___ upset me today." i heard you mention this before today but must not have really heard you. your emerging awareness creates new situations that are bewildering but we are always here to help guide you through them. good night my sweet girl. sleep knowing that you are so loved.






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  2. Such a beautiful post. My little girl is going through the same right now, and I can so relate to every single word you wrote. Thank you!

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  3. My Jude has been going through some changes too, lots of 'one more song' requests in our home too. You're so right. I will sing Barenaked Ladies 'One Week' as many times as he likes ;)

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  4. This made me teary. It's so easy to forget how important it is to slow down and really hear our little ones. Thank you for this beautiful reminder.

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  5. This is lovely. Amazing how the little ones can bring about a greater sense of 'now'. Lucky for your little ones they will have each other.

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  6. This post is so beautiful. You are an amazing mother.

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  7. I'm glad to read that I wasn't the only one to get teary-eyed reading this! Yet another beautiful post, Elizabeth.

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  8. totally hit home for me as some days with my sweet boy can feel so long that sometimes i catch myself rushing through the night-time routine...this was a beautiful reminder to not rush a single second. totally had me teared up. elodie is such a precious little girl. so blessed you are.

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  9. i echo all of the comments above. my daughter is 2 months away from turning 3 and how in love i am with her. so often i find myself striving to be as observant and aware as she is. i love reading your words because you say so simply what feels so hard for me to express. thank you so much for sharing so deeply.

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  10. It's amazing to see them unfold into little people, to come into their own, to be so aware.

    Just lovely!

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  11. this is beautiful. she is beautiful.

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  12. Lovely, gentle reminder to us all to slow down and enjoy our little ones even more <3

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  13. We have been reading "I'll See you in the Morning" by Mike Jolley, to our little bear since he was born (nearly 2 years!) and it is a beautiful board book about night time and sleeping - one of my favorite lines goes "The Night is just a blanket that puts the earth to sleep". It says so simply and lovingly everything I think Mama's want to say :)
    Addie
    http://www.amazon.com/Ill-See-Morning-Mike-Jolley/dp/0811865436

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    1. Thanks Addie! I'm looking it up now. It sounds lovely!

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